Ok… sorry to leave you hanging with this, but life has been crazy and exhausting the last few weeks. Here, as promised, are some of my thoughts on this song.
The night we sang it at youth group, I was struggling with some feelings that were a result of some pride issues. God has blessed me with talents like singing and dancing, and I often get frustrated when I feel like other people aren’t recognizing those talents “enough”. That frustration comes from a desire for my own glory, rather than God’s. We actually sang this song twice that night, and the first time served to break my heart over the thoughts and actions that were a result of my prideful heart. “I don’t have the power/I don’t even have a clue/I don’t know all the answers/I don’t even know a few”. That first stanza was such a powerful reminder of who I am in relation to God- our all-powerful, all-knowing Creator.
The second time we sang the song, I was thinking about this trip. I have so many expectations of how God can use me during my time in England, but the reality is that I have no clue what
His plans are. I realized how much I need to humble myself and truly allow God to be in control of every aspect of this next year- where the money is coming from, what I’ll be doing in England, what I’ll be learning, how I’ll be growing. My prideful attitude puts my focus on myself (the man) instead of Him (God). I also need to be willing to admit that I don’t know, because it’s only when I’m willing to do so that I turn to God for the answers; I forget that Truth can only be found in Him. Finally, I want the line “I tune my ear to Your command” to be true of me. Listening requires action on my part; I need to be faithfully training my ear to hear God’s voice above everything else that is clamoring for my attention. How can I follow Him if I can’t even really hear Him?
So those are my thoughts on “Gideon’s Prayer”. This is going to be my prayer as I turn my eyes to God in order to find strength, the answers, guidance, and most of all humility.
